Lets admit it: I'm a film student, but that's ok

You think you can create while studying? Think again. I know, you always do more when you're busy and when you have nothing to do you don't use this time to do the things you always wanted. Time should be hard to get in order for you to actually get some of it. But still.

It's like my creativity goes down to zero, and I don't even miss it - it's sad. I have so many small things to do, nothing can become really big. My soul must be splitted to so many parts, I don't even know what I'm doing anymore. My script? How can I even think about it? Nothing is real, my life is a film, and not a very good one!